A Black Hole

Three days into our holidays, and the Blond blue eyed aryan rat departed from the day job since last week. Izzie should be a happy happy serpent. But no. It's all doom and gloom.

Had last Thursday and Friday off as usual. It was glorious weather - sunny but not too hot and very breezy but not too windy. Pottered off to the old lunatic asylum with a new devilish deck and also visited the latest instalment of Sculpture by the Sea which is always amazing and magical - especially at sunset
But was unable to enjoy any of it. Was going through the motions but totally unable to be in the present moment. Friday was no better. A visit to see the robotic dinosaurs at the museum followed by another afternoon at the beach amongst the sculptures was equally uninspiring

But this week has been even sadder and more pathetic. Did not even get up until after midday on Monday. Normally would have been up around 5.40 in order to be at work for 7am
Did not leave the Lair until shortly after 2pm to go on a coffee crawl and visit the city. Got the bus back around 5.30pm as there was simply no point in lingering any longer when in such a crazy agitated state

Tuesday was an early bird. Got up reasonably early in order to catch the bus to the city at 9.30am. Was meeting a friend at 11 but there was papers to be read and bills to be paid before then
Went to see "Alice in Wonderland" in 3d before pottering off for pizza and catching the bus home at 4pm. Slinked into the serpent sack for a snooze and did not wake up until just after 6pm.
This is just seriously crazy.

And today was like Monday except not even leaving the house and spending not just the morning but the afternoon too in the Land of Nod.
It's not like there's nothing to do or nowhere to go. There's plenty but just no interest or enthusiasm for anything at all even the stuff we usually love
It's still too hot and dry to bother doing anything new in the garden. All attempts at planting seeds have ended in nothing. Either they dry out with all those 40c plus days or they get eaten by slaters, snails or other little critters
There's also plenty of decluttering, tidying and stuff to be done around the house. Never any shortage of things to do on that front. And there's lots of books to read, dvds to watch and pages to squiggle on. But no interest or enthusiasm at all in doing any of it

We have two days of 38 celsius forecast for Thursday and Friday so not holding out much hope for much motivation on those two days.
What is so strange, often get these phases of doom and gloom, depression and recession but they rarely last long than two weeks. While they usually arrive slowly, they depart suddenly to be followed by a phase of silliness and irrational exuberance. But it's long long overdue by now
All the tricks of going to happy places or doing happy things are not fooling the monsters of gloom. In fact, they seem to be making them more obstinate

There's been a few moments of amusements. Monday evening's gladiatorial battle between Richard Dawkins and Senator Fielding (amongst others) was absolutely riveting and simply hilarious even when it was often rather serious.
Would have just loved if he could have taken on Tony Abbott as well as the Bitch Bishop.

A Black Hole

Three days into our holidays, and the Blond blue eyed aryan rat departed from the day job since last week. Izzie should be a happy happy serpent. But no. It's all doom and gloom.

Had last Thursday and Friday off as usual. It was glorious weather - sunny but not too hot and very breezy but not too windy. Pottered off to the old lunatic asylum with a new devilish deck and also visited the latest instalment of Sculpture by the Sea which is always amazing and magical - especially at sunset
But was unable to enjoy any of it. Was going through the motions but totally unable to be in the present moment. Friday was no better. A visit to see the robotic dinosaurs at the museum followed by another afternoon at the beach amongst the sculptures was equally uninspiring

But this week has been even sadder and more pathetic. Did not even get up until after midday on Monday. Normally would have been up around 5.40 in order to be at work for 7am
Did not leave the Lair until shortly after 2pm to go on a coffee crawl and visit the city. Got the bus back around 5.30pm as there was simply no point in lingering any longer when in such a crazy agitated state

Tuesday was an early bird. Got up reasonably early in order to catch the bus to the city at 9.30am. Was meeting a friend at 11 but there was papers to be read and bills to be paid before then
Went to see "Alice in Wonderland" in 3d before pottering off for pizza and catching the bus home at 4pm. Slinked into the serpent sack for a snooze and did not wake up until just after 6pm.
This is just seriously crazy.

And today was like Monday except not even leaving the house and spending not just the morning but the afternoon too in the Land of Nod.
It's not like there's nothing to do or nowhere to go. There's plenty but just no interest or enthusiasm for anything at all even the stuff we usually love
It's still too hot and dry to bother doing anything new in the garden. All attempts at planting seeds have ended in nothing. Either they dry out with all those 40c plus days or they get eaten by slaters, snails or other little critters
There's also plenty of decluttering, tidying and stuff to be done around the house. Never any shortage of things to do on that front. And there's lots of books to read, dvds to watch and pages to squiggle on. But no interest or enthusiasm at all in doing any of it

We have two days of 38 celsius forecast for Thursday and Friday so not holding out much hope for much motivation on those two days.
What is so strange, often get these phases of doom and gloom, depression and recession but they rarely last long than two weeks. While they usually arrive slowly, they depart suddenly to be followed by a phase of silliness and irrational exuberance. But it's long long overdue by now
All the tricks of going to happy places or doing happy things are not fooling the monsters of gloom. In fact, they seem to be making them more obstinate

There's been a few moments of amusements. Monday evening's gladiatorial battle between Richard Dawkins and Senator Fielding (amongst others) was absolutely riveting and simply hilarious even when it was often rather serious.
Would have just loved if he could have taken on Tony Abbott as well as the Bitch Bishop.