The Return of the Serpent
25/03/2023 09:30 pmToday is the first day that I am sitting upstairs in front of the Big Mac since I turned it off on Monday 9th January when a 37 degree C day was forecast.
Since the weather is a good bit milder in the last few weeks and the festivals, Sculptures by the Sea and other tempting events are now all over for another year, I had been meaning for the last week to come back and dust off the old serpent scales at my online Lair.
But I always manage to get distracted. Usually Duolingo or just sitting with a glass or two of red in the garden listening to the creatures.
But today I got sneaky with a preemptive strike. Instead of slinking upstairs at 9pm (my previous prefered online lurking time) then turning on the Big Mac followed by the wifi hot spot, this time I turned on the computer around 7pm with no actual intention of going online at the time just greatly reducing the obstacles that I could use as an excuse later.
I had not been in the room since I turned off the computer back in January. So I was not expecting any resistance when I opened the door. I had to push pretty hard to open it which did seem rather strange.
It was then that I saw several decks of tarot cards just lying on the ground. The shoe holder which I had repurposed for tarot decks had fallen from its hook on the back of the door and lay crumpled on the ground with the contents strewn around. It is too dark now to do anything with it except move it out of the way into the corner but tomorrow I will have a proper look to see the damage.
It's now planting season in this bit of Oz. I got several heads of Oz garlic at the shops so that I can start planting them soon and of course a dozen leaf babies just waiting to go. Especially since some light fingers ripped out a nice little green carpet on the verge that I was so proud of. It was a green rather rambling ground cover with juicy triangular leaves and little pink daisy like flowers. I have pictures of it but need to google to get the botanical name for it.
The other big news is that this coming Friday I have an appointment with my shrink. She is going to assess me for autism and already asked for detailed responses to a bunch of questions about my past especially as a kid.
She is only going to charge normal hourly consultation rates since while she is actually a qualified shrink, she is not no the official list of those approved to diagnose ASD for NDIS (national disability scheme) purposes. I know what I am but it's nice to have a piece of paper to declare my OFFICIAL Status - 100% Certified FREAK!
At least now I know for certain that what I used to think of as depression was simply the green cells going into shut down mode due to sensory overload. Now I am much more wary about soldiering on. I will just sneak into a quiet spot to calm down and recharge. That's just 5 minutes here and there rather than to keep going and end up being a zombie for several days.
Shopping centres and anywhere squealing chaos monsters lurk (also known as kids) is at the very top of my list of places to avoid as often as possible.
Now a new source of stress are jerks on e scooters who tear up and down foot paths - often while staring at their f@#$$% phones totally oblivious to any pedestrians they may mow over.
So so annoying since walking is one of the best ways to clear your brain and get rid of pesky cortisol and other nasty stress hormones.
Since the weather is a good bit milder in the last few weeks and the festivals, Sculptures by the Sea and other tempting events are now all over for another year, I had been meaning for the last week to come back and dust off the old serpent scales at my online Lair.
But I always manage to get distracted. Usually Duolingo or just sitting with a glass or two of red in the garden listening to the creatures.
But today I got sneaky with a preemptive strike. Instead of slinking upstairs at 9pm (my previous prefered online lurking time) then turning on the Big Mac followed by the wifi hot spot, this time I turned on the computer around 7pm with no actual intention of going online at the time just greatly reducing the obstacles that I could use as an excuse later.
I had not been in the room since I turned off the computer back in January. So I was not expecting any resistance when I opened the door. I had to push pretty hard to open it which did seem rather strange.
It was then that I saw several decks of tarot cards just lying on the ground. The shoe holder which I had repurposed for tarot decks had fallen from its hook on the back of the door and lay crumpled on the ground with the contents strewn around. It is too dark now to do anything with it except move it out of the way into the corner but tomorrow I will have a proper look to see the damage.
It's now planting season in this bit of Oz. I got several heads of Oz garlic at the shops so that I can start planting them soon and of course a dozen leaf babies just waiting to go. Especially since some light fingers ripped out a nice little green carpet on the verge that I was so proud of. It was a green rather rambling ground cover with juicy triangular leaves and little pink daisy like flowers. I have pictures of it but need to google to get the botanical name for it.
The other big news is that this coming Friday I have an appointment with my shrink. She is going to assess me for autism and already asked for detailed responses to a bunch of questions about my past especially as a kid.
She is only going to charge normal hourly consultation rates since while she is actually a qualified shrink, she is not no the official list of those approved to diagnose ASD for NDIS (national disability scheme) purposes. I know what I am but it's nice to have a piece of paper to declare my OFFICIAL Status - 100% Certified FREAK!
At least now I know for certain that what I used to think of as depression was simply the green cells going into shut down mode due to sensory overload. Now I am much more wary about soldiering on. I will just sneak into a quiet spot to calm down and recharge. That's just 5 minutes here and there rather than to keep going and end up being a zombie for several days.
Shopping centres and anywhere squealing chaos monsters lurk (also known as kids) is at the very top of my list of places to avoid as often as possible.
Now a new source of stress are jerks on e scooters who tear up and down foot paths - often while staring at their f@#$$% phones totally oblivious to any pedestrians they may mow over.
So so annoying since walking is one of the best ways to clear your brain and get rid of pesky cortisol and other nasty stress hormones.